Macabre Moments

Rattle, rattle,
A restless mind thinks,

the blue pills whisper,

Or is it me?

I can’t tell,
not when the walls are breathing so loud,

Just as loud as the memory of the ninth,

so fast, so sudden,

So,

Unexpectedly,

A moment within a moment,

That’s all it takes to spiral,

to try and fathom where you went,

Where have you gone?

Are you okay?

Do you know?

I try to understand,

But I can’t,

The unknown is bigger, much bigger,

Than what I can understand,

It’s an inescapable hole,

It makes my head hurt,

My heart race,

Everything seems so big, so small,

And the blue pills take it all away,

No more racing,

Or pacing,

Nothing remains,

but the memories,

And the

Pain